I hate the details. This is my least favorite part of my life – from the dust on the floor, to double-checking my work, to making sure I remember the little details of my friends lives – this is not my area of expertise.
I probably have the best manager I have ever had in my current job. The greatest thing about her is her standard of excellence in all realms of her professional life. No matter who she encounters, her attention to the detail, her ability to notice the small things, especially in the technical, is really impressive. I have learned a lot from her and I admire her ability to not only expect the same from me, but also from everyone around her. I have learned a lot from her and I truly believe she has impacted me professionally in a really strong and obvious way.
As I grow professionally, I am now more responsible for making sure other people do their jobs right – which means I need to know what they are doing, what I am doing, and to notice every little detail that does or does not come up. Again, this is not my strong suit and I often times find myself banging my head against the desk wondering why the hell I am doing this for a living. This is not my interest or my passion, and I sure as hell would prefer to be doing other things.
I have learned to have to suck it up, especially with my manager, because I know that the devil lives in the details. These details will eventually come back to haunt me, the next person in my shoes looking into these projects and initiatives I am leading, and as much as it annoys me, these details are incredibly important.
My mom is incredibly aware of my deficiencies here. From the beginning of time, my mom has told me I am not detail-oriented. It genuinely would drive me insane when she would remind me of this weakness, mostly because 1) I didn’t need the woman who birthed me to remind me of something I already knew and 2) she never has ever said it nicely.
I was recently complaining to my mother about this and in her way she reminded me of my weakness. This is what she told me:
“If you are faithful in little things, you will be faithful in large ones. But if you are dishonest in little things, you won’t be honest with greater responsibilities. And if you are untrustworthy about worldly wealth, who will trust you with the true riches of heaven? And if you are not faithful with other people’s things, why should you be trusted with things of your own? (Luke 16:10)
I think we all know that we are capable of much more than what we are currently doing. As someone who has recently decided to step into my grand dream and vision, I came face to face with the fact that my faithfulness in these small tasks in front of me – managing my workload at my current role, paying attention to the details – are incredibly good training grounds for work that I will one day do. I don’t think life just serves us everything we want, whenever we want. I think we are prepared for it with the things we decide to be faithful with, today. I think God is so incredibly kind, to sharpen our skills and to show us how, even before we know the what for the how.
I think that’s really freaking cool.
A friend of mine once told me, I don’t think it’s enough to quit a job just because you’re bored.