I grew up sitting through family prayer until I moved out of my parents’ house. The agenda looked like this:
- Two songs
- Two scriptures (one long, and one short)
- Three prayers (my sisters, mine, and one of my parents)
I remember the first time my mom went away and I missed her the most at family prayer time. I remember crying, eating an egg sandwich, wishing she was there to pray with us.
When I started to pursue my faith, I tried to reapply family prayer to my life. I found myself getting bored and sleepy during my prayer time. It was hard to focus on God.
I have a major focus problem, so sitting in prayer didn’t do it for me. In an effort to commit to this quiet time, I began reading Christian books.
As I matured in my faith, it began harder to find my identity in those books. I only saw myself in the lens of those who wrote, which made it hard for me to find my unique place in the kingdom of God.
I cannot stress enough how important it is to find your unique rhythm and communication style with God.
In 2017, I began to pursue the voice of God in the vehicle it worked for me.
It began in my writing.
God might manifest himself to you in spaces and way that are ordinary and completely you. They might not look like prayer closets or twenty four fasting.
It might look like journaling and writing down the revelations you hear from God. It might be afternoon walks in nature, breathing in the majesty of God.
It might be travel. Or film. Or great music.
God is asking us to try. He’s asking us to open up our hearts to the idea of finding him in the places He has made special to us.
Prayer: Dear God, help me find my unique way of connecting with you. Help me not to focus on how others find you. Remind me of who you are in the midst of the things I love.
- Psalms 139